Wednesday, June 14, 2006

The Buttoned-Down Hero

When I first set out to write "Unloved" I had every intention of creating a brooding, category romance-style hero. Dark eyes, dark hair. Tan. Older. Rich. Sexy.

Cardboard.

Superficial.

Boring.

Somewhere along the way, Jude acquired a past. And a personality beyond the astounding ability of what he kept zipped in his sharply-creased, tailored trousers. And angst began to happen. "Unloved" was first developed as a partial novel, years ago before I understood much about people and relationships. I think some of that naïveté still shows in the bones of the story, especially in main character Nona's youthful reactions to Jude. But the story stalled, and Real Life happened, and the story went into my slush pile where it quietly hibernated.

Fast forward to early 2006. I went through my slush pile looking for potential short stories to polish for submission to the Amber Heat contest at Amber Quill. And up popped "Unloved" from the depths. Something about the basic germ of the story still appealed, so I ran with it. And this time, Jude had dimension and scope as a character. Sure, I depended on a little clichéd Freudian mother-problem to paint Jude with some broad strokes—when you have 12,000 words to get your point across, you'll take a few shortcuts. But I also knew Jude much, much better after years of living, working and loving in the real world.

I knew Jude: He's a "Buttoned-Down Hero."

I spent a lot of years working in Corporate America, where men are men but wow, are they on some tight leashes. Think about it...they must be professionals at all times. They can't give away corporate secrets. They have to wear suits. Ties. Tight, suffocating shoes. And button-down Oxford shirts. They can't say what they mean, because that might mean exposing a weakness in the business world, where the sharks circle regularly looking for blood. They have to work with women they might want to date or know in aspects beyond that of colleagues. Showing a little interest in a female co-worker might put his job at risk.

I married one of those men. That's not to say that Jude is a thinly disguised facsimile of my husband, for he's not. (For one thing, I can't imagine Jude fixing a washing machine transmission while lying in a half inch of water on the basement floor, but my spouse has done that. *grin*) But certainly I understand what it takes to burst the Buttoned-Down Hero from his necktie and buttoned collar and get him to show the heroine (though perhaps no one else) his soft underbelly, his specific vulnerability, his love.

Repressed men make hot characters. I don't mean sexually repressed—I'm writing romance, after all—but emotionally repressed, or constrained by societal pressures. As a writer I get to explore the forces that keep this man in his suit, inaccessible. I always know that he's longing to leave the power tie and wingtips behind and run muscled and sweaty after the heroine, waving his sword or dragging the carcass of a deer behind him as proof of his prowess at providing, but the restrictions that keep him from expressing his feelings are the very things readers like to pry at, find that loose edge and peel back. It's empowering, as women, to think that only we have the key that will open this particular man.

It's exciting for readers to see glimpses, like shafts of light through cracks in the front door, of the hidden interior life of the Buttoned-Down Hero. And what could be more appealing than watching the slow deterioration of this man's personal walls, as the heroine finds her way inside his guard to the rich emotional life locked within? The reward for looking deeper than just the surface is love.

And...really, it works that way in real life, too.

What about you? Is there a buttoned-down hero in your favorite book, or even your own history? What made him especially appealing to you?

Nina



(Crossposted to Nina's blogspot blog, at http://ninamerrill.blogspot.com/
the Amber Quill Press authors' blog at http://aqpauthors.blogspot.com/
and to Nina's LiveJournal blog, at http://nina_merrill.livejournal.com/)

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Unloved: first review posted!

Kerin over at Euro Reviews posted a very kind review of my story Unloved!

A little confession...outside of my circle of beta readers and personal friends, Kerin's was the first review I've ever received as a professional, published writer. It made me squeal with glee! She gave me five European Union flags out of five! I'm delighted.

Here's a link to the review.
Note that there are LOTS of reviews and other fun things on the Euro Reviews site! Take a little time to tour and enjoy yourself there! Kerin also kindly agreed to let me repost the review here.

Young Nona Hartley chose Jude Danzig to be her first lover and is devastated when she confesses her love to him and he coldly dismisses her feelings. She leaves Miami determined to forget him and immerses herself by taking over the operations of her family’s citrus grove.

Jude has never gotten over Nona’s rejection and decides to show her that he’s a different man than the one she abandoned two years ago in Miami. When he purchases a local competitor’s citrus grove, he’s determined to show her he means business…but will his painful memories still keep them apart?

Unloved is a sweet love story about a child that was punished for his father’s transgressions and therefore never accepted the existence of love. Jude’s emotional intensity translates into love and as he strives to understand his feelings, he still struggles to acknowledge Nona’s love. She helps him to understand his feelings and vows to love him for who he is and the man she knows him to be. Nina Merrill has penned a beautiful story and when I finished this story, immediately added her to my auto-buy list. Her talent for character development makes her an author to watch out for!

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Dreams Do Come True: Unloved Available for Purchase TODAY!

Dreams really do come true. Sometimes it takes them a while, but it really can happen.

This particular dream of mine--having something I've written be published--has been around...ooooh, since I was about 12 or 13. The summer between elementary school and junior high, I did the typical teen thing and turned my schedule upside down. I was up most of the night, and wanted to sleep until noon.

But I wasn't up watching TV the way my parents thought. No, I was writing, in longhand, my first novel. It wasn't a very good one. In fact I'd venture to say it was pretty terrible--princess in disguise seeks out unicorn in disguise while they search for a treasure also in disguise--but it was the first step on the Writing Road.

And today, June 1, 2006, sees me happily publishing my first story: Unloved.

Waaaaay back last year sometime, a good friend and fellow Amber Quill Press author, Grace Draven, mentioned the press's "Amber Heat" contest. Once a year, Amber Quill opens its doors to submissions of erotic stories, 12,000 words and under. This is how Amber Quill finds their new authors. Grace, who's read a few of my stories, thought it would be worth a try for me to enter the contest.

So I did. This past January, I submitted two short erotic stories, "Unloved"--weighing in at right about 12,000 words at the contest limit, and a shorter fantasy erotica called "Genie, No Bottle."

Imagine my surprise and delight when on March 1, Amber Quill let me know that "Unloved" was one of the Amber Heat Wave contest winners!

And today is "Unloved's" debut. It's hard for me to express how excited and proud I am that I've passed a milestone on the Writing Road: publication.

Onward! (You'll have to imagine Nina's Dance of Glee, but trust me, I'm dancing! It looks very much like a Snoopy Dance.)

If you're interested in buying an electronic copy of "Unloved", just Click HERE! The Heat Wave winners are on special sale this month in honor of the contest. Amber Quill supports a multitude of downloadable e-book formats.

And if you do read it, I'd love to hear what you think of it, good, bad, or indifferent. As a writer, I'm always striving to improve, and feedback from readers is important. You can reach me at nina.merrill at gmail dot com (just remember to replace the at with @ and the dot with . and remove spaces!).

Have a happy June, dear readers!